More thoughts

I spend a huge chunk of my waking hours thinking about all of this - mulling it over. I'm reading a very accessible book at the moment called "That's the Way I Think" by David Grant, which has been enormously insightful on dyslexia, dyspraxia and ADHD. Obviously our talking and thinking with our therapist and with Zack's is ongoing. I am still leaning on the schooling door, and have an appointment with a clinical psychologist for early June - this will help us to have something more tangible when going to schools and asking for a place. My hopes were, and still are, that we'll be able to find Zack a new school for year 5 but... it's going to require a miracle. Somewhere.
In the meantime though, I've been aware for some time now, that we only dwell on the negative and the difficult and the challenges. So much has happened in the past few years that it's almost eclipsed the happy memories of the early years with him. So I've started going through the archives and printing photos from 2011-2015. It's important for us all really to remember the happy, bubbly boy that still is inside there somewhere, and hopefully with the visual reference make it more possible.
As such here follow a few :

Christmas 2014 - looking a little bleary eyed but delighted 'the day has dawned'

scallywags in one place, standing still, looking at the camera – a rare occasion

happy pics despite it all

Bungee fun at the Summer Fair

Up and Away

Glorious sunny afternoon in Coldfall Woods

brothers: aged 35 months and 63 months (5 years +)

visual record : 4 to 5 weeks old

I've realised that there isn't nearly as much time to take photos of your second child as there were with the first. I'm trying to be good and force myself to do so, whenever the opportunity presents itself. Already I feel guilty as we have no videos of young Calvin in his early days - something I must remedy. These were all taken in the last week or so...